Sometimes when life hits; it hits you hard.
Being laid off is something I never thought would happen to me.
I took this picture a couple of months back while working my 8-5.
I worked in the oil & gas field as an administrative assistant. Although I loved my company and co-workers deep down I knew it wasn’t enough for me. Especially when work started to slow down. I was unfulfilled and needing so much more. I would never be brave enough to quit. Having a toddler and family to help support there would be no way.
Then it happened, I was laid off.
It wasn’t a complete shock. I can’t say I didn’t see it coming but that didn’t stop me from crying like a huge baby in front of my two macho man bosses; hey it’s okay to cry and let me tell you, I am a crier. Happy, sad, confused, mad, hungry- all of those emotions can bring on the tears.
Here I was for the first time in my adult life unemployed. It’s terrifying. I didn’t even know what to do. Just go home? Well yes, but my mind was so confused I couldn’t even think to do that.
That’s where embracing the journey comes in.
See, little did I know what exactly was going to happen in the following months.
What did I do next?
I won’t lie that first week, I freaked. I applied for every kind of job I could find. Was depressed and annoyed. Applied for unemployment and felt so low having to do that. Heck, I cashed out my retirement because I was so nervous about running out of money. Which is not a good thing to do unless it’s really needed!
Then the holidays rolled around and I slowed down on looking for a job and just kinda embraced my new time with my family. Slowly I started to become happier but something was still missing.
I felt guilty but I needed more than just being a mom.
Being a mom is the best thing to happen to me but I’m a creative. I love to socialize, make things, network, and help people.
I made myself do more because of my new found freedom. Opened my Etsy shop, started my blog and began to build my social following.
Thankful doesn’t even begin to describe how I feel. Trust me, I know it’s not easy when you work 40 hours a week. I never would have gotten this far if I was still in my day job. I honestly don’t think I would have THOUGHT to get this far.
Sometimes you have to get to the bottom to realize what the top looks like for you.
Never in my craziest dreams did I see myself selling on Etsy or running a job. I always had a passion for crafting and writing but I didn’t even realize how doable it was. I also didn’t realize how satisfying it was. It’s definitely something that is apart of me now even if I go back to working a full-time 8-5 job.
I’ve found such fulfillment from all of this. The fulfillment I didn’t even know that I needed.
I’m still embracing all of this. David just got a job in the DFW area so we are relocating there this month. My blog is slowly growing in the direction that makes me happy, I’m learning so much about the marketing, SEO, and social media management side of things. I have so many ideas and goals that I want to accomplish and finding so many exciting opportunities.
My favorite part is that I’m home every day with my 18-month-old Colt and my boxador Reba. We have so much fun together. Getting to watch Colt grow during one of the most exciting times in his life is unreplaceable.
Honestly, if I wouldn’t have been laid off that day I would still be the same unhappy Jessica, always needing more, I’m embracing this journey. It all happens for a reason.